If you had asked me a year ago about what I thought of senoir year, I would have told you it was going to be a breeze, that I was going to be able to kick back and relax because I was officially done. But if you had asked me yesterday what I thought about senoir year I would have responded with one word: stressful. I feel as if this emotion has ecompased my senior year and has not let up since the day school started. It hasn't been a terrible year, but it has been full of work and challenges that I would have never expected a year ago. But I know I'm not the only one who feels the stress of this year. Though it's hard to admit, I know everyone is sitting in the exact same boat. We all want to get out of high school and move on. Some will move on to college and others will move onto jobs. The feeling is mutual though and everyone is just trying to find a way out of high school.
While I have felt the pressures of this year I have also been able to look at the positive aspects and respect them too. If someone had told me I would be on Homecoming Court my senior year, I would have laughed. I wouldn't even consider myself princess material, yet somehow I made it onto the Homecoming Court. People would ask me if I wanted to win and I would just respond with "I'm thankful just to be on the Court itself, winning would just be an added bonus." This year's Homecoming by far was my favorite due to the fact that I was surprisingly stress free for the day and wasn't worrying about things like college applications or homework that needed to be completed. I just went out and had a good time, something that I haven't been able to do much at all since this year began.
I've learned that I can get into college. It sounds silly that I would say that, but I constantly was doubting my chances of being accepted to one. I was under the impression that if you come from Fairfax County and you're applying in state than you shouldn't even count on receiving an acceptance letter. "It's a very competitive environment and your GPA may not be high enough" Ms. Connelly said when my parents and I talked to her about colleges back in April of last year. Though it was a simple remark, it scared me to death and that's when the doubts started. They've slowly stopped though. I've been accepted to two of the colleges I've applied for which are Southern Utah University and UNC Greensboro. I'm still waiting for three other responses but I'm okay now. Seeing that I can get into college has really helped boost my confidence. Hopefully the rest of this year will turn out to be a good end to a challenging year. I don't want to continue to struggle the way I have for the first half of the year. I want to be able to look back on my senoir year and see the positive aspects and take the challenges as a learning experience. I'm not alone and being able to talk to people is just a blessing in itself. I've noticed that people have had a leap in maturity and even though we might not all be friends, we come to respect one another and appreciate each others strengths and weaknesses. That has been a guiding light for me so far and I continue to see it as a reminder that I can get through this year.